14 weeks along and 26 more to go!

Well I am 14 weeks this week and it has come with a few changes. Before this it was pretty much the same day in and out besides I started feeling more like "myself" within the past 2 weeks. There are going to be areas where I am brutally honest and I don't consider it bad, I just want to remember everything and not leave much out of this experience.

• Monday I had a day of uncontrollable tears. It is odd to not be able to control the emotions of your own body.


• I have been trying to get a few workouts in each week including Barre 3, aqua aerobics and yoga. I like yoga mama because I know the moves are all "safe" even though the doctor hasn't limited any of my workouts, just not to life more than 15lbs. But the real reason I like yoga mama is that during savasana (the final resting pose) I can feel the babe move.


• I want to run again, I always look at races and wonder how much I can do. I don't feel entirely comfortable running in this hot weather and I know my speeds and heartrate will disappoint me so I haven't got out there. But I think I am going to try and just forget about goals and just go. I miss it. I miss it dearly. If I could get out there for 10-15 minutes I think I would be happy. There is a race in October, it is a walk/run for a local mom's shelter and I am thinking I might do it and it will be good since I will have a good bump by then!


• So far I have just felt fat, I don't feel pregnant. I have a spare tire around my waist. I have tree stumps for legs. My butt and thighs seem huge. My melons are much larger than before. Some body changes were expected and some were not!


• To be brutally honest this pregnancy is hard for me. And it has been an easy pregnancy, I have nothing to complain about as far as symptoms or infertility...I think once I have a bump it will be easier but so far it is hard for me. I was never supermodel skinny but I did consider myself "fit" before. Giving up workouts for rest is hard for me to do. But I have to do what my body is asking, not what my mind wants.


• I am trying to embrace the fact that I am growing a beautiful baby! That I am nourishing a human in my baby factory and my body is going through incredible changes.


• Jake has been wonderful, supportive and caring. We cannot wait for baby to get here and meet him/her.


• I have been researching cloth diapers. We are going to go that route for cost and the fact that I don't trust the chemicals in disposables and I don't want those on my little ones tushie! They are a little more work than disposables but I will be much happier overall with this choice. I found a local store that does cloth diapering classes so I am going to take one of those...there are a TON of options as far as cloth goes, it is not the cloth that our bottoms wore in the 70s!


• We have been debating finding out the sex and I think we have decided against it. There really isn't an advantage leaning us towards it besides wanting to know. But I think the anticipation in the delivery room will be unbelievable and he will be able to announce "It's a ......!" and it will be a moment we will remember forever!


• I still fit in pants, no maternity pants yet...I think that is going to change very very soon! I am hoping it does, I can't wait to have a bump!


• Cyrus and Riddick are taking baby training like it is nothing! They are great dogs and a crying baby doll is not phasing them one bit. When we hold the doll they don't even try to get our attention. So that is going better than expected and I am very pleased!

My goals for 15 weeks are to start cleaning out the nursery and guest room. I know the next 6 months is going to fly by! I also need to workout a few more days and go for a run with no expectations. I want to be in the best health for baby!!